Cannot think of a title Today.. it has been sometimes seem i have write my feelings out..


I have seem to FAIL a lot of times that what ever i do wont make you feel happy, how hard i try to joke with you you wont seem to like it, nothing, no matter how i wanted to pei you to make you more happier and let you know that in SH you still have me this pen you to be there for you.. but as far as i try and can see you just don take me as a friend/PY/someone that you can talk your heart out.. when ever you talk about other friends or talk to a person that u just know for like 1month.. i know you will still feel happier than talking to me.. really trying my best, may be not you don see it but than everything i try you just take it as (ya ya ya whatever) and the (ha? please just stop talking) and i did try everyday if you are working, not to be hate by you i try to stop when you are not happy i will try to ask what happen and every time you will just only give that look(not happy) and say (er.. nothing ar..) you know this have been happening after i 3rd time talk to you?? and this have been the respond i get from you every time every day.. sometime i wanted to tell you something that i wanted to share with you about myself or how the days goes and what nice thing i have.. i also dare not say anything out if you give me that respond every time i open up my mouth.. no matter where you place me as a friend, hi bye friend, just a no one, no matter what i will still place you as a good friend of mine.. if you are able to read this thats good.. if not never mind..


I know you have problem till now that haven been resolve but you have to JY ok? GE wo hui yon yuan zhe che ni de.. but if i'm gone hope that we will still contact one and other and i wont forget that day that you bought TEA and the Fruit that i like(Strawberry) really love it and with the sweets that you bought.. but than you know that wo hua ken tho ni de xin qin so do not need to hide from me k..

All of a sudden just remember that daily at work i have to do so many thing and just today only have me, rafe, eugene and Rahmen working together.. morning we have to warm boxes and do alot alot of work.. last time just thinking of the work load everyday with only the 3 of us some days just only 2 person and even i working alone on the monday.. the stress load is there and lately so many thing keep coming in and keep changing i some times work till very sian(feel like eating Ice cream).. Today i was walking in to work with no mood.. but than today a motivation came in after i go and buy breakfast when i saw a set of paper to be warm for TS counter, i saw a sticker paper on top saying (THANKS :) - NIK) just a small thing also will make me feel happy and motivated just to work in SH(for the people working around me) here i will like to say THANKS NIK K for the small note that you left, though you will not see this blog but really thanks for this that i found myself back to working hard.. because other than you only one person have been thanking me only - my info BOSS(Sheng Yang)...

GOOD/BAD DAY

OUTING:
Having an outing after so long at work without a real off day.. thinking that i will be happy all day long going to off for 4 days just to really relax myself and to just really rest.. but than i still start to miss how working is fun and STRESS and having the fun people around i have start to miss you all(don need to name if out as you all know who's the few wo huo xiang na only).. just talk about today was a planning long ago as to change money to Taiwan money to spend in Taiwan after changing i have found out than i m very POOR kid after all having so little money left in the bank i almost go crazy.. really don know what to do, but just think i think i can handle my own money well.. **hopefully** having a great fun at dinner with my good friends HHPY, ZXPY and ZXSM having them around we had a great time though we did not do much in the day as we only meet up at 3pm.. while having my dinner i receive a call from someone telling me what happen at the BackEnd team just enough to spoil my mood just on my 1st day of work only and this things happens.. but than over all this is not what i really care just than when go back how many things i have to handle only all the KIVs.. as some people have told me i m a happy go lucky guy and very out going person.. sometimes i also will look for people to talk to also, as i m still human after all... but i still like to hear what people have to say..


P.S:Hopping that you are the one to cheer me up though it may not be you.. just happen to think about you today hope you see this

sign off
kwang_ET

SUDDEN FEEL FOR BLOG

SUSPRISE BY ZXPY n NICH GE

Thinking about some of the staffs that bring me hao de zhe yi that wo pu hua wang ze, just like today ZXPY came down to pscsc but not knowing that she have bought me n soon tat bubble tea from eskemo(think spell wrongly) though i have no time to drink.. but than other that her also got Nich Ge that have bought me a box of strawberry that was from the USA(bought form supermarket), so susprise by this two people that have treat me something without me asking.. ^^ soooo not going to foeget today though that some times in pscsc time are not so good but due to people of what they say and what they do to make me stay and not just for the pay but also for the people that have gone though with me and lots of things happening..

OUTBURST

thinking back when people say this will i have my outburst again?? thinking back don know when is the real one that happen on my friends.. sometimes having a small talk and having a small fight also will get people together as well hahaha.. sometimes people ask how come you can be so shu ban to so many people?? i myself think liao i also don know, but than understanding people is what i wanted to do from last time know people best is knowing yourself better understand people that are around you and you will have a good chance to know more friends too.. some of the people will not treat you as the friends that they wanna to be with but than as time past i know i will be his/her friends also


aside: yo si wo ye pu xiang ze xiang le..

HISTORY REPEAT

once again.. everything is going one around, having some new friends and starting to lost some friends.. as i can see thing are going wrong again and i try to close the gap but there is some people that do not allow me to do so.. not helping but still rub the salt on the wound.. come on just say it out if u r not happy.. i don like that stupid feeling that u just start to stop talking to me.. reply my message like *F*..

hai.. hope everyone out there will be fine don got too work up on the cases that SH is giving.. really hate it..

GIRLFRIEND

someone some where asked me this question 'when you going to find a girlfriend?' what kind of GF you like? thinking back hmm.. don really think so may be when i meet one one day again.. i will know where the she is my type anot go thought thing together than i will know where the she's the one for me... and up coming life is a hard road to go though i will still keep it up.. leave life to the fullest as people say, i say say try to be happy everydays stay happy till i grow old alone? i don really know.. haha

but i will still keep a look out for that someone that may or may not show up in my life.. as for the time now i will just find a HPY of good bro that i can talk to..

Random

so long haven been blogging just writing diary:

Thinking back i have left alot of people out of my life just to earn money at SH, working at SH having no singtel signal making me not able to send SMS out.. sometimes at work i feel like SMS-ing someone that i can talk to though he/she wont really know how it feels, i really need to sms, times to times i have this chong dong to just walk out of the room and just find some Ice-cream to eat just to keep cool, having the work load just at backend is high enough to make me be angry to anyone.. trying hard to cool my self every time not to explore out in the room.. thinking when ever i off/RD the very next day how many recon and follow ups i have to do is one more stress..

some times wanna talk to people that come in to the backend room, but work done give me time, but now i have 6 people in my team hope everything will go well in the upcoming days, teaching new guys is hard some times but thinking how they can help me in the future there make a little smile on my face..

today just had a dinner with ZXPY thinking that she will tell me why so random asking me to eat dinner with her, so i waited but some how some topic bring me to ask her that y qus and i understand why she asked me out for dinner..

having so much thinking i also think back m i having too many people secret? but i don think so lei.. just that i may be a bit bitchy >.< style="font-weight: bold;">SORRY FRIENDS THAT I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY

PS: i miss you even if you are just so near to me

Best Friends and Bros

m i having any best friends?
have i have any good bro along side by me?
did i trust all of them?


i have ask my self this question for a very long time and looking around this circle of friends from all over the working place i know i have to be none of the above..

sometime just feel like putting thing aside and do my best to help out in anyways that i can.. thinking that people will start to leave us and new people will join in.. wo puo shi xiao qi de.. haha just something small things will make me happy and small thing can also make my days feel bad.. but when u have best friends n bros around that u can talk with sometime makes urs listening been talk to someone u trust... but in order to trust people u have to wait for people to trust or u will trust the person 1st??

have u ever not trust urs best friends/bros before??

not to worry needed a listen ears?
i m here for u if needed no matter u take me as a friend/bro/best friend
i will be here

wih love ICE@ET